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sorry to every friend, follower everyone else who might like my stuff i really wanted to do some christmas drawings but i dunno if i will get in the mood for this at the moment because on saturday 13. dec something horrible happened concerning my family so for everyone who don´t want to read drama, sad nonsense of a stupid, useless wannabe artist this is your chance to stop reading.

so why am i writing this drama stuff anyway? dunno if this looks this way but i don´t want to seek attention, sympathy or condolence through this journals but they help me a little bit to handle with my mixed up feelings so sorry if i annoy you with stuff like this.

well now to the tough part...
this saturday after me and my grandpa did a little party to celebrate our birthdays which are just separated by one day (his birthday was the 10. dec) and everyone left the party my grandma who spend the day in bed because she seemed to have a cold feelt worse from one moment to the other and was screaming of pain so i called 911 and the emergency guys where fighting for 2 hours to get her stable for the ride to the hospital after her heart stopped beating but they couldn´t help her anymore.

she was not in a good condition cause of her age and many emergency surgeons in the past but no one would thought she would die all of a sudden.

at the moment i don´t know how to feel (well sad off course) cause everything happened so fast.

also i really want to support my grandpa and the rest of the family at the moment but i feel like i am not a big help which drives me crazy... feeling helpless in such moments sometimes feels even worse then the sadness Dx

this whole thing will haunt me for quit some time so sorry for any moodswings that might appear in the ext time
  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: stuff
  • Reading: my torn mind
  • Watching: stuff
  • Playing: stuff
  • Eating: edible stuff
  • Drinking: liquid stuff



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jackkuro Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2016
your style is wonderful. what lovely art you make
OsakaOji Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2016
gosh. thanks a lot ^^ glad you like it
TwilightIsMagic Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2015  Student General Artist
:iconpinkiehappyplz::iconsaysplz:Weeee! Today's the day, everypony!
:icontwilightderpplz::iconsaysplz:Pinkie, do we have to teleport in like that every time?
:iconpinkiecuteplz::iconsaysplz:Of course, silly! Else it wouldn't be a proper birthday greeting!
:iconpinkiepiesmileplz::iconsaysplz:Happy birthday!
:iconapplejackplz::iconsaysplz:And it wouldn't be a proper birthday if Ah didn't bring y'all an apple pie, baked by yours truly!:iconapplepieplz:
:iconrarityiscuteplz::iconsaysplz:Let us all give you our best wishes on this occasion and wish you a wonderful year!
:iconflutter-shyplz::iconsaysplz:I hope that you will not run into any trouble this year and that everything will be as good as it can possibly be.
:icondashissuperhappyplz::iconsaysplz:Don't forget that you're awesome! And that we're all your friends! Keep on rockin'!
:icontwilightliciousplz::iconsaysplz:Always keep the magic of friendship within you. May it bring you as much joy as it brings us!
:iconadorablespikeplz::iconsaysplz:And don't ever feel like you're useless or unworthy! Only you have what it takes to live your life, so don't let anyone or anything else get you down!
:iconbrilliantpinkieplz::iconsaysplz:And of course, don't forget to have fun while at it! And speaking of fun...
:iconpinkiebrilliantplz::iconsaysplz:It's time to party!:iconpinkiepartyplz:
OsakaOji Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2015
thanks a lot ^^

very creative well wishes ^^ thanksies
ultragamer89 Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2015
:iconhappybirthdayplz: :iconcaekplz: :iconpresentplz:
OsakaOji Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2015
thanks ^^ mmh strawberry :D
eagc7 Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
happy bday!
OsakaOji Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2015
thx ^^
eagc7 Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
your welcome!
ArcCahlon Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
happy birthday, hope you have fun with family and friends.
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